I have a good year I'm guessing, before I have the chance to travel and meet my baby girl face to face for the first time. Yes....baby girl. Nate and I have narrowed our parameters down (adoption lingo for age/gender specifications) to an infant girl 0-18months. It turns out that if you increase your age range, you can still specify gender. I will say that I hesitate to even specify anything because I feel that God will place the exact child we are meant to have in our family with us. It was a difficult decision, but I'm trusting that Oliver will be a good big brother for his baby sister.....and we couldn't be more thrilled to have a sweet girl in our family.
In this year of waiting, I'm gearing up for some major personal growth. Daily I think about her, if she is even born, what her birth mother is going through, how she is doing, if she is healthy....so many thoughts run through my mind. I wish I could just push the fast forward button and have her here, safe and home with our family. But, I know that in times of waiting, or longing, or difficulty comes great times of beauty and awakening. I'm holding on to that understanding with all I've got.
I wanted to share a little song and video that touches my heart. I have a huge lump in my throat every time I watch it because I think it is a portrait of some of what I may see when we travel to Ethiopia.
I'm so excited for you both, I get teary every time I get on here to read more about your story! Your baby girl is so lucky to come into such a loving family :)
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