Truth Be Told

Throwing all my personal stuff out there for anybody and everybody to read is hard.

It feels scary.

It feels uncomfortable.

I rarely offer up this kind of information about myself unless I am asked personally. I think that it is a topic that is not openly discussed very often. But it should be.

Many woman struggle with infertility or miscarriage. Why don’t we talk about it? Do we blame ourselves? Feel shamed? Are we afraid to let others know about our silent fight? I know for each woman it is a deeply seeded and personal agony that we often times keep to ourselves.

It took the prodding of someone who has adopted three children to say to me, “Kerri-you need to share this with people.”

Now, I am a pretty private person, and consider myself to be on the shy side. Even so, I am glad I finally put this information about myself out in cyber-land, no matter how uncomfortable it feels.

What has surprised me through this “coming out” process is that many of you have these same struggles. Many of you have felt the pain of infertility, the hurt of miscarriage. Many of you have wondered if this will be an issue sometime down the road.

I truly am touched by your willingness to share your stories with me. Dear friends have shared with me along side with others I have never met. We all have very similar experiences.

I am amazed at hearing from those who have a heart for adoption as well. Again, people I have known my whole life along with strangers have reached out to me and expressed their desire to one day adopt. I am inspired by you all.

With each person who reaches out to me and tells me their story, or offers me words of encouragement and support, I feel the “uncomfortable” part of being an open book start to slip away. I am starting to feel more at ease with this, knowing that maybe I am making a small difference in helping someone else cope with a loss, or consider the opportunity to adopt.

That alone is more than I could have ever asked for.

In a big way, this blog has been cathartic. The rally of love I have received is so heartwarming. To hear others tell me I am an inspiration feels backwards, because all of you are truly inspiring me.

If I can motivate someone else to consider adoption, I feel it is worth any bit of discomfort I might have felt in the beginning of this process. If I am a safe place to fall for someone who struggles with infertility, than I am happy to continue sharing my story. No matter how hard or scary it may feel.

Again, thank you for sending all your love my way. Please keep spreading the word, and keep sharing your thoughts and experiences with me. I love it!